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I began to write poetry at the age of 13, to express my inner struggles. I wrote poems about beautiful magical places as well as dark pieces about depression and suicide.

My BLOG consists of many recent journal entries as I venture on my journey towards Mental Wellness. It also includes old writing pieces (poetry, short stories and writing snippets). In time, I hope to give my old writing pieces context and weave them together in a linear fashion so they make more sense! :)

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Jun 12
1 min

My Heart is Open

My heart is open: Pumping blood — spilling love into my veins. A river courses through me. My eyes are dry although inside I cry from the...

Jun 4
1 min

Rainy Days when it’s Sunny Outside

I sit at the screen and breathe — In and out. Blasé is a feeling that’s deep. It’s not sadness per say, It’s numbness. It’s this looming...

May 12
2 min

Freedom from the Mental Health Act

As many people following my advocacy know, in February 2021 I was discharged from the Royal Jubilee Psychiatric Ward on extended leave...

Feb 17
2 min

Hope for Better Treatment

I just had the best session I've had with my psychiatrist in a long time. He's open to taking me off of involuntary treatment. I brought...

A Heartfelt Embrace (Poetry)

Jan 10
1 min

A Heartfelt Embrace (Poetry)

My heart beats with loneliness, My chest heaves with despair. I hug the tree out front my house, breathing in its air. My fingers touch...

Dec 20, 2021
1 min

3:00am Lullabies (Poetry)

Sing a song my sweet Sing a song and go to sleep Lullabies caught in my head Body resting, warm in bed Smile a tired smile You’ve walked...

Memories of Psychosis

Dec 15, 2021
2 min

Memories of Psychosis

Doing the Art & Psychosis study has been really triggering. I wish the whole experience never happened and at the same time, I’m grateful...

Dec 5, 2021
1 min

Silly Poem

Write, write, write — write some more. Free these feelings, open the door. I’m nothing special, I’m not the best. I’m not perfect. I need...

Nov 23, 2021
1 min

A Lunatic’s Lullaby (Poetry)

Hush my sweet, go to sleep The moon is crescent As I weep Crying for insanity Crying out for love Crying out obscenities Releasing every...

Nov 20, 2021
1 min

Moments of Despair (Poetry)

Too tired to move Too awake to sleep Diving in emotions Dark and deep Swimming back up To feel the air To breathe in love And breathe out...

Blissful Moments

Nov 19, 2021
2 min

Blissful Moments

I've had a very good day. I had Mindful Movement today. It’s a half hour walk from my house. When I got up it was pouring out however....

Little Update/Late Night Thoughts

Nov 3, 2021
2 min

Little Update/Late Night Thoughts

I'm having a hard night. I think I have to accept a med change and go back on the med that caused the Parkinsonism but in the injected...

Oct 28, 2021
4 min

Marijuana and Psychosis (A Journey Worth Writing About)

I had a love affair with a plant. With a sensation. A ‘high’. Every time I smoke the voice gets clearer and I see now how I am choosing...

Oct 21, 2021
1 min

Full Moon Poem

Tonight during this moon Let the werewolves rise. Let them howl out their woes and pierce the night skies. Tonight during this moon let...

Oct 17, 2021
1 min

Alone

I am alone, except I’m not. I’m alone in body, not in thought. I’m alone in my mind, but not during prayer. I’m alone in here, but not...

The Magic (Journal Entry)

Oct 3, 2021
4 min

The Magic (Journal Entry)

October 2, 2021 SUNDAY 11:36pm I go outside and have my first and only marijuana session of the night. As soon as I sit down the voice...

Sep 21, 2021
1 min

Blessed

I wish I had something hopeful to say. I wish that I felt bright. I wish that I could help my friends lead meaningful and productive...

Sep 20, 2021
1 min

Stormy Days

By Amy Frank Fear is here to help me, I cannot cast it away. Fear also has a purpose. Fear is here to stay. Sadness is here to release...

Rest in Peace Nicole Tourangeau

Sep 19, 2021
3 min

Rest in Peace Nicole Tourangeau

September 5, 2021 SUNDAY 6:30pm Today I...

"The Art of Mental Wellness" Tagline

Sep 13, 2021
4 min

"The Art of Mental Wellness" Tagline

I use the tagline "The Art of Mental Wellness" because although I'm not well, my aim is to be. I want to be well more than anyone in this...

How I Feel (Update on my Situation)

Aug 29, 2021
6 min

How I Feel (Update on my Situation)

August 28, 2021 SATURDAY 4:40pm I don’t...

Aug 10, 2021
1 min

For the Hopeless

I try to give you Hope - I hide it in my art. Hope that inner peace will rise in souls that are torn apart. I try to give you Hope - It’s...

Art & Health Update (June 15, 2021)

Jun 16, 2021
3 min

Art & Health Update (June 15, 2021)

I'm grateful for the years I had medications and when I hurt in my body, I take the meds the doctors prescribe. Every anti-psychotic I've...

What Will Be Will Be

Mar 31, 2021
2 min

What Will Be Will Be

It comes in waves. Sometimes I forget my situation and I feel centred and at peace. Today has not had a lot of those moments. I get the...