Should My Days End (Poetry)
Should my days end
with no romantic love
waiting for me
beyond the veil,
or perhaps no lover
left mourning me,
with a glimmer of light
burning sorrowful
and bright
knowing one day
they will join me;
then let it be known
that in this life
I have felt love.
I have felt love
from my family,
I have felt love
from my friends.
I see the love in round
cream coloured eyes,
a fluff of feathers,
and painless love bites
to remind me she’s boss
but is happy I’m here.
I will not depart this life
having not known love.
At the end of my days
I will rest in peace
knowing some
who ran their hands
along my body,
who caressed my lips
with their lips,
as we lay quivering
in the sheets,
held my heart
within their heart
and truly, truly
loved me.
No one knows
when the end will be
but may I grow old
surrounded by my books
of memories.
Surrounded by the heartache
of love not reciprocated,
and of all the love
I lost.
Between the throbbing aches
may I acknowledge the love
I was offered,
yet could not return.
The hearts I too
did shatter.
May I relish in the love
from my family,
and my incredibly
supportive friends,
and all those strangers
whose lives I’ve touched,
or have touched mine,
yet we’ve never met.
There is so much love
around me
and a little bird
who’s always grateful
to see me.
Yes, when it’s my time to go
I’ll know
that in this life
I was loved.
And God knows,
I have given
so much love back.
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No, this is not a suicide poem. I started writing it while in the shower with Saba then when I got out I wrote it down. Emotions emerge from things happening in my life and writing helps release them. I’m sorry if this poem made you sad. I meant it to be bittersweet but sweet in the end that I do feel loved in life.
I understand my ability to express emotion in writing causes some people to be concerned about me. I do want to know if my posts concern you but please give some leeway for creative expression. Writing about pain, sadness or hurt does not equate to being in crisis.
It’s totally okay to check in of course, I’m glad it was brought to my attention that it came off as concerning to some.
Ps. Thanks to Suze Ryan for the editing help. 🫂